well?

I'm having a bit of a dilemma.  it seems I can't be happy without someone
else telling me what to do.  because recently, I've become disillusioned
with my job, which was formerly making me very happy.  and what have I
done about it?  start writing on my own?  no.  work on other projects in
the company?  no.  sit around bored and job hunt?  yup.  I guess my excuse
is that I don't want to do any unuseable, unappriciated work for the
company, but the truth is that I don't have any good ideas for work, and
I'm lazy anyhow.  I don't enjoy this life of day-in, day-out boredom, but
I seem perfectly at home in its clutches.  Hmm, sounds a bit like school.

in other news, I'm gaining weight.  I tried to resolve today to eat less,
but then I didn't.  

yay, sarah tomorrow!  bedtime with that happy thought, instead of job
woes.  mmmm, sarah.