I think Avery was right;  I think Michael Jackson's "Smooth Criminal" does

have, perhaps, the best bassline ever written.  

Hmmm.  Always tempted to include links to people and things I talk about,

but don't.  I mean, people;  that's probably an invastion of their privacy

(plus few of my friends are lame enough to have webpages).  And stuff,

well...when I start writing html tags into my diary while I'm writing it,

that's when I KNOW I need help.

Another entry being entereed laying down, not looking at the screen, and

not knowing if I'll fall asleep before or after I say something

worthwhile.  Who cares, though.  Better to let my brain flow out here than

to ignore it.  I really should do this daily, just for the practice of

getting my thoughts out.  I had trouble with my writing tonight.  I wanted

to write something new, but instead, I just went through what I had and

revised.  I definitely made some worthwile revisions, but it isn't the

same thing.  Almost feel like I need a creative partner.  I can write

all the poetic dialogue (ha), and they can come up with interesting

things to be going on, situations to put the characters in.  I keep trying

to draw on my own experiences, and so right now, the characters are at

Lyon's at 2am.  D'oh.



I think I'm really starting to get a feel for who the characters are,

though.  In large part because I'm figuring out what parts of different

people I know IRL they're being modled after, but it feels good to really

get the characters to be distinct indivituals, instead of all simply

mouths for me to speak out of.  Not that they aren't, but . . . arr.  They

shouldn't SOUND like they are, they should sound (and act, and seem,

whatever) like different people, albeit with shared traits.  



Why is it that whenever girls are interested in me, I always end up

indifferent towards them, wheras whenever I'm interested in a girl, she

doesn't even want to talk to me?  Hmm.  I'm sure a lot of it is the

"seaweed is always greener" deal, but. . .  Well, that's not true.  I was

interested in Cathy, and that turned out ok (at least to start out with);

she turned out to be inetested back!  And that was just recently.  "See,

you're always so busy complaining about what you're missing, you never

look and see all the things you have!"  Hmm, I hate not knowing exact

quotes. Yayswingers.



FUCK!  birds are chirping.  I should really get to sleep.





he had a lot to say

he had a lot of nothing to say

we'll miss him