mmm.  got a teddy bear, a cup of tea. I'm feeling really good right now.

like I want to be happy with the world.  like I like people.  I went out a

couple hours ago to get a bite to eat, and a guy on the street asked me

for help.  his car had broken down, and his triple A membership was

expired.  he needed (to shorten the story) a ride to the bus station in

oakland, and a bit of money to get home.  I didn't feel like it, but I

would have wanted someone in my position to, and I had nothing pressing to

do, so after grabbing a quesadilla, I came back and helped him on his way,

and gave him some cash to get home.  It felt really good to help out

someone in need.  Oh, and mom and dad, if you're listening, he said to

tell you that you've done a god job raising me and that it's obvious I

wasn't raised by wolves :)  



and until today, really, for at least a good week, I'd just been hating

the world.  I mean full-on loathing the bulk of all people I cam into any

sort of contatc with.  ugly stuff.  I talked to my friend Johanna about it

over lunch today, and she said the same thing happens to her;  this

despising of people in general that comes in waves.  thank goodness I

think the wave has broken and the sea is once again calm.



this camomile tea must be some potent stuff, because I'm falling crazy

asleep.  could be that it's 4am, too.  best get my rest, since Benjie and

I are leaving at 6am tomorrow to go surfing / snowboarding.  as he said,

"I can't wait to pull into the Mt. Judah parking lot with surfboards on

the roof and sand in our hair."